MYSDN forums stuff

December 30, 2006

Some of my DET/DMD-mates frighten me sometimes. Somehow (though not surprisingly) I am recognized as a troll in the forum who wants his karma to be as low as possible by deliberately dissing people off. That is only half-true. True, I am trying to get my karma as low as possible, not by deliberately making people mad, but by being tactlessly frank. Recently I was commented on being a troll for making some people upset. It went something like this.

- OP started topic on elitist vs slow-learner. 1st question was briefly “Would having good academic results define your character?”.

- Without reading any posts, I posted that the 1st question is phrased wrongly because anyone with any moral values will say “No.” unless (I added…deliberately but true to my honesty) he is a total fag.

- Some guy called Zero said that he said “Yes” in a previous post and he got upset.

- I read his post and it stated that “I’m an Elitist” but does not elaborate on why or how he is one. Instead he went to give an example on how singapore is an elitist state, which defeats the whole fucking point. So technically, I did not insult him unjustly.

- Another guy stated that Zero must remain tolerant of me because I am a troll blah blah blah.

So it went something like this (exact quote):
Guy: “faylar is basically trying to get low karma, make him mad by not smiting him and ignoring him, for nothing angers a troll more than ignorance.”

Me: “jabuteh. Nothing angers me more than ignorance. Congrats you just insulted yourself.”

I can take it if anyone reads anything wrongly. I just can’t take it that someone just shoots his words just like an ignorant asshole he is when he doesn’t know what I’m referring to, which leads to dumber comments and posts.

READ motherfuckers. God gave us two fucking eyeballs and a intelligent brain so please make damn good use of them.


Shanghai tour summary

December 27, 2006

Day 1:
This will probably be the longest day of the Shanghai vacation. We took this ‘Baruda Inodesia’ flight towards our detination. Not much to say here other than the 5 hours flight and the slight delay in the departure. Food is pretty much like all economy class food, only slightly worse because…well…not being racist but it’s ‘Indonesia’. The music thingy built into our seats are playing extremely old 5 year old songs. The rest of the channels I can’t understand the language. Ride was bumpy and almost unsleepable like all airplane flights. At 0845 we landed in Shanghai.

The weather isn’t really cold in the morning due to the sun. Even in the night, when the temperature took a nosedive, it wasn’t so bad. Then again, when I was in korea I was only equipped with my BHSS pants and my cloth long sleeve shirt, a jacket, a beanie and a thick leather(?) glove. But the wind didn’t eat my face like the last time. In korea’s -20 it practically destroyed my lips, my nose, my ears just when I step out into the open. Shanghai isn’t so bad compared to that.

We first sat the bullet train all the way to this town called ‘Wujian’. It travelled damn fast (like it should), like 421km/h, which is about…7 times our MRT speed? Anyway, Hanzhou is goddamn messy. Zebra crossings are useless, persistant beggers are everywhere, babies are sold, clothes are hanged in the open for drying, everything is just chaotic. Of course, not the mention the retarded amounts of conmen roaming the streets selling fake branded watches. We all just ignored them and went ahead for our lunch. But seriously Hanzhou is very messy and very…uncouth? I’ve seen the retardedness of korean, thai, HK and malaysia traffic but this one is so messy there are roads with no lines.

Lunch and dinner were pretty ‘chinese’. You know, spinny glass table thingy with food on it. We had that for lunch and dinner. Only cool thing in Hanzhou is that incredible…er…street?…that sells all sorts of great food and a 18RMB bottle of water.

After lunch we headed to Suzhou, a place where, according to my tourist guide, says that chiobu’s with beautiful white skin etc etc come from. God I remember when I entered the airport, I already saw one chio policewoman and every young lady in Suzhou is more or less ‘passable’ as a girlfriend as far as looks go. Suzhou, I find, is also more organized that Hanzhou, which sort of gave me a sigh of relief that maybe this vacation isn’t as bad after all. Their traffic lights are huge and has a timer for every single fucking thing. Like the time left for the red light and the green light, the bus number is digitally…er…visuallized via LED lights but mostly I find the traffic light a bit overdone. It’s like they have red and green arrows pointing at different directions at the same time with a green timer ticking down, I mean, wtf does that mean?

After visiting some random ‘attractions’, temples and the works, we finally booked into our hotel…which seats right beside a 5 star hotel. That’s where I am now typing away. It’s some wierd hotel called “Scholar’s Inn” with nice looking but badly designed architechure. Bed’s reaaaal comfy though. oh well. That’s about it for Day One.

Day 2:
I’m not going to deny that when I first thought of going to Shanghai for a tour, I thought I would only understand 50% of whatever the tour guide said. That’s already being nice. I didn’t really think I would really understand 90% of his talk, not counting jargons here and there which I don’t even know what it is in English. Our tour guide(s) didn’t speak in some thick accent; he spoke in perfectly understandable chinese, although sometimes because I suck at chinese I occasionally find it hard to keep up.

When we left our hotel, we encountered the fog. It’s pretty thick, maybe it’s normal; I can’t tell since I haven’t encountered that many fogs in my life. The air was so cold that when I breathed out, by the time I run out of breath I can still see the part of the breath that came out of my mouth first, as if I was really smoking. It wasn’t too cold however. Then again, today I was doubly equipped compared to the day before. We ate in some…place, I dunno how to describe it but it was basically a buffet with half-western half-chinese food, with more to the chinese side…that wouldn’t make it half, would it..?

Now I have to say that I really enjoy visiting factories because I love to see processes, that’s why I love my course alot. I love to see processes done espacially those I have absolutely no clue of, and today we went to Suzhou’s reowned silk mill. It’s really amazing to watch all the workers working, it’s even better because the whole process is probably only 20% machine. The silk manufactured there was really heavenly, soft and smooth. On a touch it makes me want to jump on it or something. Mum bought a few pillows and such there for a really cheap price for a silk product.

After we left Suzhou, we took an hour or two worth of bus ride to the riverside town of ‘Zucheng’. It’s a really quiet place compared to the previous two cities (esp Zujian). Outside the actual town was a whole goddamn row of resturants (which specialize in lamb meat) and car washing services, slot in a couple of tacky little marts. The actual town was really really cool to look at. All the old buildings with old people still living inside. The amazing thing is that it actually looks clean and when I took a closer look, it’s not really as old as we thought. I mean wtf man those old ah ma’s are living in a dark old room with a plasma TV and microwave in it. Old my ass. I wouldn’t be surprised if one of them owned a PS3.

Again I say I love to watch processes being done, and this time it’s the damn old and traditional method of making cloth. It’s so old, the ‘machines’ look almost unstable. The damn zai ah ma that skilfully show us how to use one of them. We also visited the winery where they make white wine (’san bai jiu’ or direct translation: Three White Wine) and tasted it. God that thing is fucking powerful. It’s almost like drinking pure alcohol with a damn powerful fragrant enough to knock the very weak unconscious. When I drank it, my chest is on fire (that’s fine) and my brain seemed to have experienced some major nuklear leakage. You can just feel the alcohol going into your chest, up to your skull and leaking out of your ears. That strong.

Afterwards, we took a 2 hour ride to our tour guide’s hometown of Hangzhou. When I first entered that town, it looked strangely like Singapore. The roads are organized, zebra crossings are working, the road is exceptionally clean and I swear the place we dropped off is Orchard Road. No wonder they say living here is the best in one of their sayings. Furthermore, the tour guide told us that this place hardly have any overweight people because they hardly eat too much meat and love drinking green tea and talk cock alot. Then of course there are those ‘lengendary’ food he mentioned. Heck our Suzhou tour guide told us hundreds of ways to keep beautiful and live long. Also, Hanzhou is famous for its 3 love stories that happened in its old times like the ‘Liang San Zhang ying Zhu Yin Tai’ (my hanyu may be wrong). And no the Cowherd and Weaver Girl doesn’t come from here. Seriously though, this place does resemble singapore quite abit, just a lot more chinese words.

During dinner, we tried the ‘luoye’ wine (Falling leaves, there’s a pretty funny reason behind its origin) we tried during dinner afterwards was very nice; warm, not too strong and not too sour. I can’t believe no one is drinking it other than me. Wtf is up man, that thing is expensive, in front of us and tastes great!

After dinner, we went to watch a performance. I tell you the cultural performances we see in Singapore are like 4th rate compared to this. The Wushu guys are so serious they break their poles and I know it wasn’t intentional because only on pole broke with dust coming out of it and it was flinged in some really random direction. The…what I like to call…circus performers are really really good, save a couple of them who probably didn’t practice enough. It’s not only the people and the performance, it’s also the way they layout and organise the whole show. It’s not about one person’s act, its about the whole stage. Even the dance, the part of chinese cultural performance I don’t really appreciate in singapore was beautiful. And yes, the chinese girls are really hawt. Maybe that’s why I can stand their act not singapore’s. Also the lighting effects were top notch. If our singapore chinese performers can come up with such a performance I don’t mind paying to watch.

Soon after, we checked into our hotel, the Carry Centre Hotel (maybe that’s why they help us carry our luggage up? The previous noob one didn’t). It’s a lot more of a hotel compared to the last one we were in. Bed is less comfy but place is overall much better than the less. Next stop: Nanjing.

Day 3:
Before making our way to Nanjing, we stopped by another of Hangzhou’s many love-parks (where couples hold hands and cross the bridge yadayada) and went to a tea…farm? Dunno if that’s the correct word. We watched the master ‘fry’ Hangzhou’s famous ‘longjing’ tea (Dragon-Well for direct translation). It’s exceptionally fragrant. We were explained (in Chinese) how these ‘longjing’ tea leaves are healthy to the body and the reason why Hangzhou people are very very rarely fat (still haven’t seen a fat person). Even though the explanation was in Madarin, it was like…infinite times more interesting than the past two e3 PS3 Sony conferences combined. Note that I am a tea drinker (I hate pure coffee) so naturally I would find this interesting. They sell all kinds of tea shit here. Tea sweets, tea biscuits, tea cake, tea-shirts and tea-shoes. Excuse the pun on the last two tea products, I was just kidding. But they DO sell shirts and flip-flops there. And the shirts are decorated with tea leaves…I think. My mum bought a fuckload of tea stuff.

Lunch was pretty godly, probably thanks to our tour guide since this is his hometown. The chicken and duck was fantastic, and I forget to mention yesterday’s dinner’s chicken-in-lotus-leaf (and plastic bag) is also pretty godly. Then we took a 4-5 hour trip to Nanjing.

Upon arriving Nanjing, it was getting dark. We were told of Nanjing’s specialty dish: some cold salted duck, can’t remember the chinese name but it’s somewhere along that line. Yes we tasted the cold salted duck, and the wet salted gravy duck, and the warm dry salted duck and if I’m not mistaken, the rice is abit salted too. It’s salt heaven, I like :) .

Overall, Nanjing is a bigger, more commercial, more vibrant, more modern and busier as compared to Hangzhou. I mean, here I sighted for the first time during this trip: a LAN shop. I think if you take Nanjing and Hangzhou together you get a really big Singapore…more or less. We went shopping at this junction much like the market area between Sim Lim and Bugis Village, abeit bigger and more chinese. I saw this array of very nice necklaces and was about to buy the one with a scorpion symbol for Brenden but that only comes tied to a short elastic band (choke) or in black beads. Beads are fucking uncool…can’t imagine Brenden wearing it. If it comes tied in a lose chain + dog tag I would’ve bought it immediately for 18RMB.

Fastfood is pretty warpped. MacDonalds sell chestnuts, KFCs sell prawn and KFCs do not sell the oh-so-godly cheese fries.

We checked into our Nanjing hotel and in all seriousness, THIS is a decent hotel. Room is large, place is beautiful, hey it’s like our hotels are getting better and better. Bed is the same as the last though, but the room is really cosy. Also it seems that the hotels we are staying is getting more and more modern. Suzhou’s have 0 internet connection. Hangzhou has the cable but apparently no server. Nanjing has a cable, and have to pay 30RMB per day. Of course we’re not paying because we’re heading off tomorrow already and it’s 1030 when I started typing this.

Day 4:
Nothing much to mention about our Nanjing tour ‘cus I’m not really a sightseeing guy. The stories behind the city of Nanjing is insanely old and plentiful and so are the attractions we visited. Lakes, gates, bridges, a master artist, lots of kyrptonite and Green Latern rings. Sightseeing = 10 seconds. And yes, we have cold duck for lunch again. It’s worth mentioning though that Nanjing’s cold weather is a lot colder, almost feels like korea’s -20 degrees I experienced, just that it’s more humid. Apparently, today was only near 0 degrees, but due to the humidity, it feels alot colder than that.

Our next stop was Wujing. The industrious/residential area feels dead and old. The shopping area is damn alike to singapore’s. It is definately more modern than the other cities I’ve visited. Heck it actually has a proper electronics shop that sells mp4s and other modern applications. Food here was really great too. It suits very nicely to most singaporean’s tastes. And finally, we ate a proper fish. Other cities’ fish dish was extremely bony and has a strong ‘fishy’ smell. This one was pretty fresh and not to mention their ‘paigu’ is really delicious. They sold this traditionally warmed (charcoal) “xian tiao qiang” (er…the famous ‘Buddha jump over the wall’).

We went shopping after dinner but its mostly ladies stuff. I tried to find a shop to my liking but couldn’t. And KFC’s prawn tastes like a pepper-heavy popcorn chicken. Packaged the same way too.

Hotel is almost the same as the last, maybe a bit smaller and comes with a bathtub. Wujing’s a really active town with 24 hour shops near us. Too bad we are staying for only one day.

Day 5:
Touring in Wujing was pretty nice. We went to some big acting prop area used to shoot shows of the olden days (ie “Romance of the Three Kingdoms”). We met a few stars which I don’t recognize…maybe I’ve seen them in shows but I don’t really take note. Saw a few kungfu people here and there, and saw a re-enactment of the “Lui Bei, Zhangfei and Guanyu vs Lu Bu” on horseback.

Next we went to some clay teapot-making shop and was introduced to the beauty of claypots, which I am not going to elaborate here.

Next was a 2 hour ride to Shanghai (finally). Shanghai is incredibly huge, goddamn crowded, and looks insanely twisted. AS the tour guide said: in air there is the (damn twisting) highways, on land there is the normal roads, underground there is a subway. Even though there are so many roads to help with traffic conjestion, traffic everywhere is still a clusterfuck. We took a walk along Nanjing road and that place is solely just to ‘admire the population’ or something. Buying and queuing is almost impossible here and things is also more expensive than usual (ie, close to the price of things back home). We ate at some Dragon Boat place and continued to sightsee along the river and on a damn tall tower.

Meh, I’m getting tired and am looking forward to go home. I doubt the next few days will be anything interesting.

Last 2 days:
The tour in Shanghai was horrible. We went to see a park, some fengshui place and a “ladies-wear” shop that sells only female winter clothes. That place is pretty fucked up, I don’t know what the hell they even thought to bring us here. Not only it’s a department store dedicated to female wear, it only sells winter clothing. It’s not only this shop, the other shops near it also only sells winter clothes, male or female. The only good thing about today is the dinner and that dinner is just as good as any other dinner I had the previous days.

I spent most of the last day sleeping and I’m a little glad I did. At 1700, I went to take a walk around outside. Hailing a cab is a nightmare on top of their hellish traffic. Their traffic is conjested like fuck. It takes years to reach a nearby area.

We went to the nearest “electronics shop”, and I was hoping to see something alike to Sim Lim. It’s incredibly disappointing. It makes you want to tear you hairs out of your scalp. The long cab travel time, the tolerating of the horns, all for nought. The most updated game store has !@#$ Heroes 5 as their latest game (from what I can see). The closest thing to Half Life was CS 1.6.

The hotel we stayed in was less technologically advanced as compared to our Wuxi one. At least the dinner we ate was better than what we experienced the past few days.


Off to Shanghai!

December 19, 2006

Starting from today I will be disappearing to Shanghai for a week. Please try to spread teh message because I’m too lazy to. Right now I’m in the changi airport handphone-less. I’m gonna check out if there is wireless here (doubtful).


I’m Back!

December 17, 2006

Well, not really. These past weeks have really been loading me up with work. There are so many things I don’t really know where to begin. I guess I’ll go by chronological order if I can remember…

First things first, the Code-a-thon. I don’t know how Yee Howe managed to sucker me and Heber and Azman into this 30 hours of no-life coding. 30 hours, in the NYP Theater of Fine Arts (I think), doing nothing but coding. Despite what I say on the surface (90% of the time I don’t mean it), I’d give you my really honest opinion; the whole thing was fun. People should take note that I say negative things only to make people laugh and happy. I say things behind people’s back very often, but I’m certain the other way round happens often too. If I was the old Gerald, I would be extremely touchy and such, but now I’m pretty much used to it. Anyway, back to the Code-a-thon, I’m just very (very) happy that our team actually completed something. Others were half-baked, quarter-baked or not-baked at all. Of course, there is a few really good ones out there like our year 3’s game. It’s also really nice to see most of our lecturers taking some time off to monitor us overnight. The Midnight hour was fun when we sorta ‘explored’ the school. I wonder…what is a middle aged woman dressed like she’s going on a party doing in our school at 2330?

After which, I have to meet up with Brenden and co. for a bit of board games, but couldn’t stay for long because my dad is coming back from the US after 1 or 2 years. He’s going back at 1st Jan for another 6 months though; he’s back for a holiday with us. When he came back, it felt like he’d always been here, despite his long absence. But I’m kinda glad he’s back, heck we all are. At least for these few weeks I don’t have to run around repairing stuff and checking my mum’s spelling in her documents :)

Then there’s the Playware meeting with Jason again. In case no one know, I’m currently working along with YH, Adrain, Gabriel, with a couple of level designers and developers from Playware Studios (http://www.playwarestudios.com) to create a mod off Source Engine. I heard that soon the devs will be starting their own company. Jason is a great designer/dev so far I’ve seen him. At least he knows that every texture size must be a power of 2. I bet no one in DMD knows that. It helps speed up processing because CPUs always calculate in powers of 2. It’s sad really. Right now I’m learning modelling (for whatever reasons I don’t fucking know) and animations. It’s like I’m learning things from the DMD side to understand them, but the other way round didn’t happen. I remember being stuck telling DMDs how to create alpha channels in PhotoShop. That’s a really f-ed up moment. I thought they specialize in shit like that. I mean, I failed the bloody test for Photoshop.

About the Raknet Multiplayer assignment, I think I’m redoing it on my on accord because I’m really dissatisfied at the result. Plus my entire team is relying on me to teach them how to do Raknet. It’s kinda…fun?…really. We point to a teammate to do something, he do it and then we tell him to teach us how to do it. Cool stuff.

Lately I’ve been trying to draw stuff. Stop laughing, I really am serious. I’m DRAWING. Not as in the curtains drawing. Y’know the one with the pencil, erase and stuff? I’m sketching, shading and outlining. I’m not going to draw objects, buildings and that sort of crap. I admit I’m already adequately good at drawing such crap after being in DnT for so damn long. But people is like a totally new thing altogether. The face, the eyes, the mouth, the style and fingers…goddamn finger how the hell do anyone draw them? That damn 5 pointy stuff took me 2x more time to draw as compared to the other parts of the body. The correct size, the correct length is also important…and folds of clothing etc. It’s like learning mathematical equations. Chibi art is different though. You just have to think big head, big expressions, big eyes, and small body.

2 more days and I’m off to Shanghai for a week with my family. Have fun everyone.

my DeviantArt (currently nothing until my return):

http://the-noob.deviantart.com


Superheroes!

December 2, 2006

2nd post of the day. I dunno what the hell man. Recently I’ve been reading up on wiki about superhero stuff on both Marvel and DC comics. Heck I even borrowed ‘House of M’ (Marvel) from my friend to read for awhile.

It seems that I am pretty sick of all these Nartuo/DBZ/Bleach crap. They are all heading the same fucking direction and I don’t appeal to these animes anymore. Last time Kakashi was cool for his Raikiri and stuff until he can suddenly shift people into other dimensions. Last time Byakuya was cool because of his Shunpo and stuff but suddenly ever one and his fucking grandmother can do it. It’s just not cool anymore. Expansions on animes just don’t cut anymore. I find that a really good story would involve a character with only a power and that power does not become more and more powerful over time. If anything, the power should only be growing very slowly. Even better would be a story where everyone has powers and their powers remain the same till the end.

Actually I think I realize one of the problems and that is having a move have a name. I can’t really explain why but it really turns things ‘lame’. It works damn well for fighting games, but I realize that it doesn’t really do in animes…at least in my opinion. Death Note was a cool show. The coolest part about Haku in Naruto was cool only when he does one-handed seals. And damn Shikamaru was pretty cool when he thinks of strategies. The hair chakra thing Ino used on Sakura was also pretty cool and so is Rock Lee when he moved super fast. Fights could’ve ended better if boths sides didn’t use lame “Ura Renge” or “Chidori” or some overpowered inner self crap. Bah why am I even talking about Naruto. Let’s talk about Superheroes.

Between Marvel and DC, I have to say that DC is better of the two. Joker is a great villain. Speedy was a hero who sank into heroin. Flash is fucking imba (at least the 2nd one is). But I find that the best heroes in DC were Raven and Robin. Raven is like…I dunno…damn fucking awesome? Okay I know I’m not giving reasons to support my fanboism but seriously, ‘cool’ is subjective. Robin, or rather, Nightwing (there are 3 robins, 1st one became Nightwing) has great depth. Heck I really really thinking Nightwing >>>>>> Batman in like 200 times over. They should seriously stop making shows on Batman vs Joker/Scarecrow/Penguin/Riddler/Catwoman/etcetcetc and start fucking making a Nightwing show. Batman is old, outdated, overrated and overused. How many DC heroes does the world commonly know? 2! Superman and Batman. For cool people, 3: V for Vendetta.

Marvel is plain. At least I find that Marvel is really plain. I had never found Wolverine or Jean Grey or even Shadowcat to be cool. If I were to name the coolest person imo in Marvel, it would go like: Magneto, Spiderman………………er……………can’t think of a third one. Maybe Deadpool or Dr Doom. Meh. Heck after reading ‘House of M’, Magneto is suddenly a wimp and suddenly his coolness factor dropped by a ton.

Aside from that I can’t really name any cool heroes from Marvel. Storm? Eh, no. Cyclops? Sissy. Gambit? Seriously I dunno wtf is his deal. Xavier? Probably. Quicksilver? Sucks. Marvel just doesn’t make the cut. The villains and heroes have no personality whatsoever. Magneto, I’ve came to realize, is boring boring boringzzzzzz. The fact that all the villains are united doesn’t help. I think that’s Marvel’s problem right now. They try to merge ALL the heroes into one big group (Avengers). I mean ALL. Avengers is a fucking fucking huge group consisting of F4, IronMan, Wolverine, Capt.America, Electra, …fuck just go look at the damn list

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Avengers_members

About TV shows, I’ve been watching lots of Cartoon Network recently. Justice League almost made me sleep. Batman was pretty unique. Teen Titans is fucking awesome. Too bad it’s aimed towards kiddies. I wasn’t really into the show until I saw The Prophecy episode. It’s a fucking awesome epi and Slade’s voice actor will go down my list for coolest sounding villain voice next to Agent Smith. Damn.

I almost considered to get CoH but meh, after recounting my days, it wasn’t particularly nice. MM sucks.


Draw! And Work!

December 2, 2006

Recently, I’ve been telling myself to learn to draw because I seriously can’t stand it anymore. Seeing all those awesome drawings online and stuff, seeing my friends draw with ease, I’ve always wondered how the fuck do people in general. I do not understand sketching and drawing. Do people ACTUALLY picture pictures in their minds and draw them out? Maybe. But I don’t know and I need to know.

Why? I have tons of reasons. First was that I’ve always wanted to draw *something* but couldn’t bring the willpower to do so. Secondly some cartoon 2D pictures, esp anime style pictures (ie chibi/etc) are just plain cute/cool/awesome/you get the idea. Thirdly, I find that drawing a picture you are satisfied with can bring really great momentary happiness inside. It’s very different than the feeling I get after I complete a game. I even think that artists get more satisfaction seeing their pictures in action than us seeing our codes work them out. It’s just my personal opinion. I think that some programmers are secretly trying to make themselves extra satisfied by saying “hey without me the graphics are nothing”. That’s not the point. Do you feel satisfied when you show your lecturers how things are created when you present? You want to show them in the 10 minutes but you can’t. Meanwhile the artists have shown everything they have done because…well…everything is on the screen!

The thing is, no matter how complex your codes is, no matter how efficient your codes are, as long as it runs well and buglessly on a mediocre platform, it’s good. On the artists side, they sure as hell don’t have to crack on their heads on whether I am ‘newing’ a class here would cause lag or whether a certain ‘for’ loop will crash the system or not. They draw. And when they complete drawing, they feel happy because they can VISUALLY see their end product. I find it sad for us that programmers, no matter how crucial we are, we don’t get the global credit for making things work. Many many casual gamers always fucking go “z0mg kewl grafix!1one!!” which is done by the artists. Then gameplay. Gameplay is done by designers and sometimes suggested by other team members. Then…? Nothing. If graphics = gameplay = good therefore the game = good.

Okay I’m getting abit out of topic here, but the thing is that I’ve always wanted to draw and failed many many times. The last time I ever drew something right was Sonic the Hedgehog around…er…many years ago. At least I know from that that I am not totally hopeless in drawing as I *always* claimed to be. It’s because I never bothered to practice and pursue it. I’m that kind of person. If I pick something up and didn’t like it for the first 10 minutes, I’ll drop it. I think I should really stop that habit and try some more.

I think it works both ways for us and the artists. I’m not sure…I haven’t really asked them. Maybe when I go “Holy shit how the hell did she turn a line in the drawing board into something?!” they go “Holy shit how the hell did he create stuff with all these maths?!”

Hmm maybe I should start asking. I think I’ll go draw some more. I’d just drawn something really satisfactory and it kinds made me happy. Hmm.